Ive been slacking on this for a while...will be posting more data when my finals are over. i am in the middle of my final week of performing don't know how i feel about this. after becoming a presence in the space and taking on this habit it is ingrained in me....I'm going to miss it when its over.

so much has happened the past few months i have realized more about my self and about my surroundings through this process....i am becoming aware of my own aesthetics and thought processes more so than i ever have in the past. Ive gotten everything from praise to harsh criticism, endearment and indifference. I'm realizing that being a person engaged in the world is not easy. the only way i can protect myself is to stay isolated, but There is no fun in that. i appreciate vulnerability, i love all the awkward moments of eye contact when i know that there is a change in a persons perspective and daily thought process by my simple presence in that space which they are negotiating with.... people commuting on their way through the business of life, become conscience of me looking at them and themselves in their activities....

its really weird i love this whole process. i have met many people through this experience, some strangers are far to curious to walk away without answers so they approach. and that's when it gets interesting....this thought of social contact being both a positive and negative thing is manifest in my knitting...my time keeping....for every person who comes to talk their presence is recorded on my material. i have been critiqued on the conceptual aspect of my work which i do think that i need to hone in on but the real art the real work is the social interaction. all the looks...people asking themselves what the hell is this girl doing sitting in this walk way staring into the crowds? my stance is rather aggressive and i can tell that some are threatened by my presence, i try to balance my voyeurism with the docile activity of knitting i think it helps take a bit of the edge off this performance of people watching....well see what happens next... this is only the beginning....